Carlos, you are quite right that you are not alone in your regret and feelings of failure. I once wrote a list of all the things that could have happened differently that would not have resulted in the deaths of Camille and Jaidon. There are twelve items on that list. If any one of them had been different, we wouldn't be on this particular path in life. We would have bypassed June 9, 2021 as just another ordinary summer day. For a long time, I would lie in bed at night and review that list over and over again. I don't any longer. Yet my sister-in-law asked me recently if I feel any happiness over the successes of my living daughter. "No", I replied, "I failed 50% of my children."
Carlos, you are quite right that you are not alone in your regret and feelings of failure. I once wrote a list of all the things that could have happened differently that would not have resulted in the deaths of Camille and Jaidon. There are twelve items on that list. If any one of them had been different, we wouldn't be on this particular path in life. We would have bypassed June 9, 2021 as just another ordinary summer day. For a long time, I would lie in bed at night and review that list over and over again. I don't any longer. Yet my sister-in-law asked me recently if I feel any happiness over the successes of my living daughter. "No", I replied, "I failed 50% of my children."